YOU ARE ENOUGH

Hi the title of my latest canvas is probably the best three words I keep close to my heart & firmly planted in my head at all times.

I love feeling that I am enough & over the past seven months I have developed a unknown sense of self worth. By repeating these three words when I am feeling under the spotlight, I am able to talk more freely with others. I am trying to feel more comfortable with who I am.

 No appologies anymore for my height, glasses, big chin, pale skin, bonkers laugh, shyness, horrendous mathematical ability, dreadful sense of direction, being left handed, bad cook and so on................ 

At 46 yrs old, the same age that my beautiful Mum lost her life far too early from Breast Cancer, I need to feel ok about myself & who I am. My Mum did not have a chance to continue with her life...it was taken from her after she put up a incredibly courageous battle. It is not only for myself that I need to feel I am enough, but also in respect for my Mum who never questioned for one second that I wasn't enough. Her devotion & love for me & my elder Sister has instilled a desire for me not to waste my time wishing my own life away with unrealistic notions.

I have created a small collage canvas today which I would like to share with you all today. 

I am working very hard at understanding just what it means to feel you are enough...someday's are better than others. It is a huge commitment for me, but the rewards are too good to ignore & turn my back on. It means when I am talking to someone I can feel more confident about myself, rather than beating myself up as usual which makes me feel so sad & lonely. I can't buy into that self destruction anymore. I have realised I am worthy of more & it feels so much better.

It has meant working really hard at accepting some of my emotional damage from my past & present. It means I have had to wipe the slate clean. It has been a painful journey, but it is my story so far & one which I am starting bit by bit to be proud of for the first time in my life.                                                                                                 

Thank you so much for reading my blog post today.

Remember you are enough.   

Until next time, take care.
xx