MY JOURNAL

  My developing interest in writing as a form of self expression has been such a successful medium for me, since January 2013 when I began blogging. I was lost, lonely & frightened but mostly numb & my soul was empty of any hope. I was battling depression as a wife & mother.

Whenever my thoughts became too much for my mind to handle, I took to writing them in my first journal. I have always had a real love of pretty things, but sadly had  difficulty in feeling worthy of them. As part of my new healing journey & beginning to look at myself with more compassion, (as I would a friend), I ordered this special little journal, just for me!

 I slowly began to fill in the blank pages with many inspirational quotes, creative design ideas for my collage artwork, poems, my thoughts & important contact numbers & addresses & names of people I have discovered along the way. It was also a documented record of our fifteen year old daughter's eventual diagnosis of Aspergers in October 2013.

MAGIC MOMENTS

I have also used it to write down some priceless short conversations between myself & my daughter's which I read when I am in need of some comfort or reassurance that I am doing the best I can?! I would like to share one with you all. 

Whist looking outside our kitchen window onto our garden with my daughter one morning I said, "Oh Zoe what a wonderful joy it is to beable to look at Daddy's beautiful garden, I never even pulled a leaf!" Zoe looked right at me and replied," Yes Mum but you do alot inside!"

 ~How wonderful!~

It will be 2 years this January 2015 & 74 blog posts later that this journal has become my best friend. It is with some difficultly that I flick back through these pages which honestly bares my often raw thoughts & emotions.

  Some of my personal reminders written for me, by me.

SOUL BANK
REMEMBER TO PUT BACK IN WHAT'S BEEN TAKEN OUT
INVEST IN YOUSELF


 GIVE YOUR HEART A CUDDLE
IT FILLS YOUR SOUL


SIMPLE PLEASURES
BE GRATEFUL


BE YOUR OWN BEST FRIEND
SELF NURTURE IS NEEDED
SEE YOURSELF

GIVE LOVE : RECEIVE LOVE

BE KIND : ACCEPT KINDNESS

BE CREATIVE : FIND YOUR LIGHT 

MAKE PEACE : FEEL CALMER

SELF NURTURE : FIND YOURSELF

OPEN YOUR EYES : BE SEEN

 Since becoming more accepting of myself & making peace with my troubled but very loving past, I have been able to focus on my future & my families too with my new found voice & a peace in my heart.

I will be forever grateful for this at times very painful, but massively invaluable learning experience.

If you are ever feeling overwhelmed by your emotions or  worries & they are weighing you down, writing in your very own special journal may help you too? I do hope so?

Thank you for reading my blog post today.

For my next post I hope to publish my end of  year review for 2014.

Until then keep warm & take care.

xx