FEELING FRAGILE

THE PERSON I CAN SEE MYSELF BECOMING

Morning guys, it's been a while. I have woken today with a desire to share & be creative. I am not working at the moment as I have been looking after my teenage daughter, helping her recover from a very difficult couple of years. This means I have very few moments at home when I am on my own.

 My days are filled with family chore's...cleaning, ironing, shopping, cooking & so on. But I am finding at the age of 46 years old & having nothing to fill my head other than the above I find the urge to be creative & sometimes even blog about my life. I guess it feels like talking to someone. A connection. Yes a communication of some sort. It helps to keep me sane! I need all the help I can get!

After a few days of feeling fragile I must do something which takes me out of my own head to allow me to feel visible, in someway? I know where this fragile emotion is coming from & I need to work through those feelings with respect & lots of self-care. But I also need to have a few things in place to allow me to move forward. 

 So today I have started a new canvas, using the colours I love. Blues, greys, corals, aqua, whites, browns, golds & greens. Not sure where it is going just yet? I would like it to feel refreshing, like sunshine after rain. Let's see what happens? Yes I think that will be it's title?!

I have moved out of the shed as my art space, as the fabulous guinea piggies have moved in. My sister mentioned I should try & squeeze into the conservatory and use the small outdoor table as a desk. It works really well & I loving being under the natural light. How lucky am I?!

Thanks Big Sis for giving me the push.
 

WORK IN PROGRESS

A few photographs to follow of my new space & the beginnings of my next collage. Also some images of "From a Distance" a canvas which is waiting to go to it's new home.

MY NEW CREATIVE SPACE

FROM A DISTANCE

I hope to show you the finished result on my next blog.

I feel very fragile regarding my future employment, having been out of work for a good few years. Due my own ill health & also my daughters difficulties. 

I am not sure at this moment in time if I can ever see myself being employed ever again?! Maybe I will spend my days blogging, sticking, dreaming! Maybe that's my calling? Who know's? Feels good... So until something else opens up, I am happy to go with it for now.

 

Thank you for reading my blog post today.

Until next time, take care.
xx